Original Song: Venom of the Serpent

Addiction is a common symptom of borderline personality disorder (BPD). It is often a way to self-medicate, and while it may work in the short run, it ultimately leads to more problems and more pain. This song, written early in my active addiction to alcohol, describes the struggle to break free. I have found writing to be a very effective way to cope with emotional pain, and music has therapeutic benefits. So I share this song with you, to tell you that there is hope in the midst of a painful battle.

Verse 1

Venom of the serpent,

Racing through my veins.

On an irate stallion,

Grabbing for the reins.

In a downward spiral,

Sweetness turns to gall.

If I'd have known the danger,

I'd have changed it all.

Chorus 1

But now it's too late,

I can't go home again.

Like the Wandering Dutchman,

My strength is wearing thin.

Racing through the dark night,

Bleeding from the heart,

Fighting for survival

As my life's torn apart.

Verse 2

Who is there to hold me?

Why do I cry alone?

Why do I turn to poison

To ease my constant groan?

How can I keep walking

When briars guard the way?

Why must I walk through fire

To see another day?

Chorus 1

But now it's too late,

I can't go home again.

Like the Wandering Dutchman,

My strength is wearing thin.

Racing through the dark night,

Bleeding from the heart,

Fighting for survival

As my life's torn apart.

Verse 3

Gambling for tomorrow

When I don't have today.

Wandering in darkness

Is there another way?

Clinging to the remnants,

Grasping for the sand

Father, hear me crying,

Take me by the hand.

Chorus 2

It's never too late,

You will guide me home

You will ease my heartache

You'll comfort every groan

Coming out of darkness

Into the cleansing Light

Eyes fixed on the Morning Star

Strength to fight the fight.