Meditation Helps Me Manage My Symptoms from Verbal Abuse

Meditation is helping me manage symptoms of verbal abuse, but there was a time in my life when I could not imagine myself meditating and taking the time to stop everything I was doing. During that phase of my life, I overcompensated for my underlying anxiety by keeping myself busy with tasks. I filled every second of the day with completing tasks. Sitting still was not part of my daily schedule, and I certainly did not try to keep my mind free and clear of thoughts. 

Unfortunately, it took me many years to realize the benefits of meditation, even after my counselors had encouraged me at every opportunity. I still struggle with it since it is very easy for me to fall back into old habits. But I am making more of an effort now than before. 

My Meditation Journey Toward Easing Verbal Abuse Symptoms

It was not an easy transition for me to start meditating regularly to help ease my verbal abuse symptoms. When I first thought of meditation, I associated this behavior with Buddhist monks with tons of extra daily time. Unfortunately, I did not identify with either of these situations and often thought maybe it wasn't for me. 

I began trying it years ago but would get frustrated and quit after I couldn't focus on breathing and clearing my mind. Then, after some time passed, I would attempt meditating again, only to feel defeated, and I had the idea that I would never find inner peace and stillness. 

I was jealous of those people who could relax and meditate. They seemed so happy and content while I struggled to keep my negative thoughts from taking over. My supportive therapists explained that meditation might never be 100 percent perfect, and I might find it hard, but the more I would practice, the easier it would get. 

What Meditation Provides Me

I can honestly say that although I do not meditate every day, I try to make time for it when I feel anxious or overwhelmed. I know that if I practiced more often, my anxiety would decrease, making my mental health more manageable. I try not to get down on myself and realize that it is my unique journey that I cannot compare to others. 

I know that when I make the time to meditate often, I am less stressed when my days are hectic. In addition, I can perform my work better and sleep more soundly. 

If you are struggling to calm your inner negative thoughts, meditation may help calm those nerves. I know that it does for me.