new to bip0oolar disorder diagnosas--what is going on with these doldrums

Hello , I am brand new to both this wonderfull support network , and how to blog.

I  love to write  to people, so here goes..

I have just been diagnosed with bipolar 11 disorder, it was a huge relief after such a massive struggle all year( and since I was 13 years old) to maintain myself , in my adventure living in newzealand , doing a full time college course, looking after the kids, (as my husband was hard at work shiftworking 14 hours a day), and assisting friends with milking cows.

First up I was like a pheenix ,on fire, a superwoman, then I crashed into unwellness, and hit depression.Then I went high then low when I came back to Australia, then I carreened into a phychotic episode.

Needless to say I have been on medication for 6 months and I am trying to get on with life as best I can everyday. I miss the highs and hate the lows, and even cant get used to being balanced in the middle now( my fizz has gone, I feel rudderless, and cant even get motivated to do my carving)

When I settled with the medication I trialled out entering my artworks in an exhibition, with friends. I soon found out I overstepped the mark, and I have spent 4 months carving to a too tight deadline to get a good collection of artworks. That produced a smaller  manic high which I just managed to contain , and I Have a lovely admirable exhibition.

This month I am bloody depressed again, I didnt even know it was building towards one.I am so sick of being  so capable  for  months then totally disorganized and down the next months .Has anybody got advice for me on how or when I will start to pickup  so I can make  carreer of my art.I have on my good doctors advice  have increased my antidepressants , I take Serequel and lithium, so I rattle a lot. I can be sure of a good sleep now since being on medication , and I love loosing the scitzaphenic and paranoid side of my metal illness. 

 Thankyoufor reading. bye NomiO